the words of a fighter

I have a neurological disorder. But I don't let it stop me. Don't get me wrong, it does limit me, but I fight tooth and nail to continue on this journey. A journey where I don't know where I am heading. A path that forks in many ways and I have many options to choose from. I live day to day on many different paths. I learn from all of them, some more painful than others. The hardest part is to continue on this journey I have found myself on.

I feel like my skin is crawling and my stomach is in knots, and I have no idea why. Help.

interesting

Interesting article on Osama Bin Laden's 4th son.

http://psychcentral.com/news/2010/07/12/omar-bin-laden-and-bipolar-disorder/15503.html

Sleep

Sleeping is definately not my forte being that I didn't sleep a wink last night. I stayed up played my guitar and painted. I learned Redemption Song by Bob Marley, and painted a bright sun for my living room with shells all over it. I am sure I will be wide awake all day, because this happens frequently. My brain will be of no use and my comprehension is shot, but I am staying optimistic and still doing what I have to do today.

"Today is the greatest day I've ever known"

That quote, for those of you that don't know, was written by Billy Corgan the day he was going to commit suicide and is about his last day on earth. The ironic thing is that the song changed his mind and as most of you know is not dead.

I had a rough day. But it was because of my ADHD. I know a lot of people believe that it is over diagnosed, but believe me, I have it bad. Yesterday and today I was without my medicine and it was horrible. I slept all day, was depressed, when I was awake there wasn't anything that could keep my attention for longer than 5 minutes. I had to get up and walk out of a meeting. I had to leave work early. I realized today that sometimes my bipolar can be as difficult to deal with as my ADHD. Tomorrow will be a better day because I got my medicine. YAY!

Introduction to ADHD

This is a great introduction to ADHD. I hope it helps break the stigma. It is not a made up disease and people do actually suffer from it, children and adults.

http://www.mentalhelp.net/poc/center_index.php?id=3&cn=3

Me

I think that it is important to not only attach links, but to talk about my own personal story. So from time to time I am going to write about how I am doing, good and bad. I feel that it might help with the stigma if people are informed.

I am mainly a manic person, which means that I am really hyper and uppity person. I don't get depressed that often, but when I do it is really bad. I have attempted suicide a few times unfortunately, and regret doing so. At this current moment I love my life and am happy as can be. My one downfall is that I have major sleep problems, some nights I don't sleep and other nights I can sleep forever. The longest I have gone without sleep is 7 days. I am a member and the vice president of the organization I started. If you want to check it out the website is www.keyclubhouse.org

famous people with bipolar disorder

This is an A-Z link of people with bipolar disorder. I was shocked at how many people have this illness and hope that this helps with the stigma associated with it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZnAG38CWZI

Joey Pants

This one is good! Check it out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5CdpFEpzBDE&feature=related

Here is an article from the Wall Street Journal about how doctors train with fictional characters. I want to hear from you. Do you think this is appropriate?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Creativity_and_mental_illness

Hello

Thanks for checking my blog out. I am starting it because there is too much of a stigma behind mental illness. We are people and with a little help, we can do anything. Not only that, people with mental illness are usually extremely intelligent and have talents that most don't. Their talents come natural and easy to them. There are many articles and journal articles associated with this. Bipolar disorder is the main illness associated with creativity. Here is a link that talks about it more.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Creativity_and_mental_illness